Happy Valentines Day Mat ♥

I know time will come, that we will be able to hold each other’s hands,

That we will be able to cuddle and kiss each other under the moonlight.

Someday, we will be able to walk in the park,

Or make sand castles on the beach.

I know one day, I will be able to kiss you for real.

Touch your skin so gently and play with your hair with my fingers.

The thought of it excites me. The thought of it makes me happy.

I can’t wait for that day to happen, I can’t wait for that day to come.

For now, I can only whisper to the wind “I love you.”

I know this heartfelt greetings will reach you.

Patiently and Lovingly, I will wait for you.

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Submission and Domination ♥

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Second Life has a very bold, interesting and fun side. Submission and Domination.

Although I am not an active participant of the whole S & M roleplay, from  time to time,  I would hang out with my best friend Abbey and she would introduce me to both fun and serious side of domination. Now, I know I am on the dominant side. a FemDom, since I know what I want and I will get it when I want it. My submission is only for the one I love and no one else. I can’t fully tell if I can totally partake S & M as I know that it will take a tremendous amount of time to fully understand the whole role play. S & M is not a game or simply about ridiculous sexual activities and tortures. It is a lifestyle, there is a culture, and it has it’s own disciplined community.

If there is anything that I truly enjoy about S & M is that it helped me get over my inhibitions and I learned about the many fetishes of people. You get to know the other side of a person, most of the time, the adventurous or wild part of their persona. On Second Life, there are many sims you can visit to witness or help you understand the lifestyle. Some of the places that I went to are the following:

  1. The Chamber
  2. The House of V
  3.  Sole Desire

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Call it BDSM, S&M or Fetish, there should be no judgment on the people who tries them. All of us, RL or SL has a fantasy of becoming either submissive or dominant and sometimes it takes some kink to bring that hidden side of our personality. Don’t be shy to share what you think. So, are you a dominant or submissive?

Avatar Detail ♥

Hair & Mask ::: Trompeur from Lelutka

Top & Bottom ::: Siren NR1 Black from Pixicat

Footwear ::: Pointed Toe Boots Black for Maitreya from Reign

Chair 1 ::: Domination Throne – F/M White from WS Creations

Chair 2 ::: The Armchair Black from Abiss Interior Design

*** Special thanks to Abbey Bigboots for lending me the Mistress Chairs and watch out for her upcoming blog about FemDom.

Happy Birthday to Me ♥

The start of year 2016 is so crazy for me. My RL took over and I was not able to update my blog but hopefully, by 2nd week of February, I will be able to be productive on SL. By the way, I should remind myself to unpack all of the gifts and items I got from SL. My inventory is loaded with a lot of boxes and notecards that needed attention .. just thinking about it makes me want to faint.  I love the month of January only because it is my RL birthday month, and yes I don’t like the fact that I will be adding another year to my age but it does not really matter because I never really cared about getting old. There is so much that I want to accomplish this year both in personal and profession, I have to stay focus and continue to be positive to achieve them.

Someone asked me what is my birthday wish .. they are very simple actually but takes a lot of effort to achieve. First is good health for me and my loved ones, continued success in everything I do, peace of mind and contentment, and the last but not the least, to finally be with my love Mat (and marry him LOL). I am super duper excited and can’t wait to see what fabulous things is in store for me this year.

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If you are wondering what sim on SL I took my photo from, well, it is the most popular strip and dance club in SL, The Pink Velvet Club. The #1 strip club recently celebrated it’s 7th anniversary and they promise more fun stuff happening this year 2016. It is one of my favorite places on SL and I hope you can all come down and party with amazing dancers and friends of the club.

Oh, if you see me on SL and I dont respond to your IM, please don’t hate me because I am on my vacation. I am spending my birthday in an awesome resort with my family. I will be back inworld by mid February to DJ, Blog, and hang out with you all my friends. Kisses ♥

Details ♥

Top ::: Jessica Loose Tank by Erratic

Bottom ::: Jersey Brief by Erratic

Top photo Hair ::: Out of the Woods by Exile

Bottom Photo Hair ::: Irena Hair by Boudoir

Footwear ::: Lydie D. Booties by Ingenue

Necklace ::: Violette Cut Bead Boho by Maxi Gossamer

Bottom Photo Lingerie ::: Delice Lingerie by Erratic

Sim ::: The Pink Velvet Club

The Gift of Christmas ♥

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The Holiday is here and everyone is getting crazy with all the fun stuff happening both in real life and Second life. In real life, I will be working on both Christmas eve and day, not fun, I know but, I need to do it since I will be on and off holiday on January. I need to cover tons of hours at work so I can afford to travel on my birthday month. Dec 30 and onward, it will be my time with family who will be coming over from Canada so, no work for me on those days and that is when I will be in my lazy mode, I will be in my bed watching re-runs of my fave tv show while eating lots of chocolates – Hello Diabetes! (LOL).

Christmas is the season for giving and there are sooo many generous store owners on SL that are giving away awesome gifts. Be sure to visit your favorite stores because for sure, they have something amazing in store for you. I received my gifts very early this December. I am not sure if I am allowed to say this but I will say it anyways. The great Meli Imako has assigned me to do photographs for her marketplace. It is an honor to be working for someone who has been sharing her knowledge and talent in creating and building objects on SL. I will do my very best to showcase the beauty of her items through my photography, I so hope to give justice to it. I will also be featured as a the newest blogger on SL, stay tuned for that. I shall write a blog post dedicated to that adventure … I am so excited!

When I was young, I did not get gifts every Christmas. I grew up living a very simple life in RL. The money that my mom had was only enough to buy rice and fish and I remember that every Christmas eve and day, we are just inside our house waiting for the day to be over. Having new clothes and shoes for the holidays is considered a luxury for me and my siblings. What others considered as a normal thing every Christmas is considered too fancy for us. At a young age, I understood that I can never have what other kids had. During my teens, I was gifted with a very nice top but since I was not used to receiving gifts, I gave it back to the person who gave it to me because I was too shy. I felt not deserving of that gift, I was terrified and do not know what to do with it. A part of me loves it so much but a part of me is too embarrass to be seen holding a fancy wrapped box. The person who gave it to me told me to keep it and that it is mine. It was a nice feeling, and I never forgot that day, that feeling, that moment.

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We did not have a lot in RL, but we have just enough to survive during those times. I grew up understanding the value of having simple things. There were many gifts that my mom has given to me and my siblings. The gift of education and contentment. Now that I am an adult, I became very ambitious, I work so hard and I always do what will make me happy. I am not into material things but every now and then, I would spoil myself with something really beautiful – of course, I also spoil my mom with everything she likes as she deserves it more than I do.

This Christmas,  I hope that you will all get the gifts that you like to get but always remember to count your blessings. What’s important is your love for everything and everyone. I hope that you get to spend the holidays with your loved ones. I wish everyone good health, peace of mind and endless happiness. God bless you all and Merry Christmas!

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Hair ::: Baby Blue by Lamb

Sweater ::: Cozy Sweater by Pixicat

Pants ::: Mia Jeans in Black by Blueberry

Footwear ::: Queluz Pump Fatpack by Hucci

Hat ::: Happy New Year Hat by Monso

Antler ::: Antlers with Decorations by Linsey Nolan

Pose ::: Sexpot by oOo Studio

Sim and Decor ::: Depoz Christmas Boutique

Me and my Boyfriend ♥

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I am very proud to say that me and my partner, Mat, have been together for three solid years in Second Life. I still find myself chuckling whenever I remember how I met him. I was on a dance pole, doing my sexy dances when I saw him landed at The Pink Velvet Club. He was wearing this odd looking beach shorts with a noobie skin and hair. I said Hi to him and he was nice enough to go on the couch and started talking to me. He was a gentleman and quite generous with tips, to think I did not even take off my bikinis. We started talking about where we were located in RL and pretty much talked about each other’s real stuff. I thought he was just one of those men who will talk to me today and never again tomorrow, it was an SL stripper thing – LOL .. by the way, he never asked for sex No No No!

Click on video above – this was my gift for Mat on Valentines Day 2013

Mat and I are friends first, then lovers. The constant conversation on Skype and knowing that he would stay up until 1 AM for me even if he has to work at 7 am the next day, made me realize that this guy must be up to something “nice”. I get excited when he goes online and I love spending countless hours with him – there is never a dull moment with my love. We love to laugh, watch movies online, we love to make fun of people – and each other too LOL. When he finally asked me if he can add me to real life Facebook, I was so happy, and then one day he told me that, he would love to make our relationship a real one and that there is no need for him to be on SL all the time since he has always wanted me to be his Real Life love … I almost faint! After 3 years, we are still together … we had our ups and downs, we went through it all. I am very happy that we were able to endure each other’s dramatic moment.

It is never easy to have this virtual and long distance relationship. He is from Canada, I am from the Philippines. Since we want to make it work, we work hard to make it work. My frustration of being away from him, not being able to cuddle, kiss and hold hands is really heartbreaking but I need to accept it because that is how it is for now. If there is anything that I really treasure about my relationship with Mat is that we have created our own world on SL. We have a beautiful beach home, we have a stubborn perverted cat, Sphynx, we both love to put our avatars in awkward positions (LOL) and we just enjoy discovering new things inworld.

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I don’t really know if it is still possible but, maybe someday, me and my love, Mat, will meet in real life. If not, I will still treasure the good  times and will wish him the best as I know, that he has a good heart. Second Life has been good to me, Mat is one of it’s amazing gifts and it is also a reason why I still believe there are good people in the community. I know for a fact there are genuine real love stories on SL and I hope that you will find and make your own love story too. Love love love ❤

Dawn’s Avatar Detail

Head ::: Logo Alex Mesh Head and Aria Dark Tone from Lara Hurley

Hair ::: Foxy by Truth Hair

Footwear ::: Lucy Wedges in Rose from CandyDoll

Top ::: Cropped Top in Pink from Blueberry

Bottom ::: Sylvia Shorts in White from Blueberry

Mat’s Avatar Detail

Head :::  Belleza

Body ::: The Mesh Project (TMP)

Bottom :::

Hat :::

Sunglasses :::

Beard :::

Decorations

Pet ::: French Bulldog from O.M.E.N. for The Arcade Gacha gift

Pose on Couch ::: Gamer Couple from Belle Poses for Winter Trend 2015

Pose Standing ::: 111 from Pose Maniacs

The New Dawn ♥

The new Dawn – click to see full image

For the longest time, I was wearing the Al Vulo Sarah Shine Sunkissed Skin. I bought it year 2013 and I promised myself that I won’t ever change how my avi looked. Many people liked my avatar, I get many compliments and so I was very confident that there is no need for me to give in to this whole mesh head craze.

Well, I was wrong. I gave in to the craze and maybe I will not regret it (LOL). When I first showed this to my boyfriend, he was a bit hesitant and he felt like it does not represent me. We were both really feeling weird about me having a new skin as we are both so used to the sweet image that my previous avatar has. It was my friend Abbey Bigboots who tagged me to a blog post on Facebook and encouraged me to check out this very cute skin. I thought it was just one of those mesh head + skins that I will probably try the demo and then trash it. I am not going to lie, I did not like this skin when I bought it and wore it for the first three days … I kinda miss the “sweet looking Dawn”. So I wore the skin and never took it off. I stared at it and was trying to figure out what hair will look best in her and how will I make her look sweet.

Last night, after a long day at RL work and before going to bed, I logged in to SL. I stared at her for a long time and rotated her while she was on a pose stand. I dressed her up with my favorite dress, hair and shoes that my old skin hasn’t worn before. I think she is starting to be the Dawn that I want her to be.  She has that classy, kinda dominant and that “dont you dare f*ck with me” look (Yay!). I think what really cracked me up was when my boyfriend’s avatar saw the new me all glammed up and I was trying to make my avi flirt with him and then he said “I feel like I am cheating on the old Dawn but, it is allowed.” (LOL) Such a horndog :p

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I would like to give props to the gorgeous Lara Hurley – she is the creator of my skin. She was very sweet when I reached out to her and asked so many noob questions regarding my new skin. I promised her that I will send her a photo of Dawn once I am done making her the “Dawn” I want her to be. By the way, Lara Hurley also informed me that she will be updating the Aria Skin applier, adding make up and tattoo layers, since Alex Logo Mesh Head  was updated recently. If you were like me who purchased the Aria Skin Applier exclusively made for Alex Logo, then be sure to visit the store one of these days and hit the Redeliver Terminal for an updated version of the skin applier.

I also want to say thank you to Abbey Bigboots and Melangel Thespian who guided me so patiently on how to apply the Omegas and the default mesh head (Yes, I was that noob!). Special thanks also to my pretty sistah for life Sibyl Vane, the super helpful group members of Omega Appliers Systems Support and Fifty Linden Friday for giving me tips and sharing their knowledge on how to use the huds and where to get the best deals to make my avatar look even more beautiful.

I am happy with the new me on Second life. I don’t want to sound so shallow, but I realized that I really need a change and this new skin is a perfect representation of the new role I am playing inworld. This is definitely The New Dawn.

My outfit and details on the new skin and mesh head

Mesh Head ::: Alex Mesh Head from LOGO

Skin ::: Aria Dark skin tone Applier from Lara Hurley

Hair ::: Tako Rigged from !Ohmai! Salon

Dress ::: Skater Dress Floral from Tres Blah

Necklace ::: Pearl Necklaces Combo White from Maxi Gossamer Jewellery

Earrings ::: Simple Pearl Earring from Curious Kitties on Marketplace

Sim ::: Botanical – Seasonal Landscaping

Solitude ♥

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There are times that I just enjoy being alone in Second Life and Real Life. I can accomplish many things when I am focused to what I am doing, and it is when all the creative juices comes out. I do want to be with someone someday, hopefully that someone is very good in conversation. I would love to be with someone who I will learn from and who can speak his mind. Most of my friends in RL got married and then get preggy in their early 20s … yup, after our College graduation. I can’t help but ask, “Why did you even go to College when all you really dreamed of is to cook for your husband and do the whole family’s laundry?” I just don’t get it but then, who am I to judge? It is not a sin to choose having a family over career. To each his own. Perhaps, I am just still selfish and can not give up my ambition.

People make their own destiny and it is wise to choose a path that will make you happy. After all, it is your life. If in the end, I will live all by myself, alone … I just hope I won’t be lonely.

The What Next store is an amazing sim. All of their items were scattered all over the place and so the splash of colors are just everywhere. I was able to use the outdoor decors as demos and took advantage of some of them for my photo shoot. Many of my home decors are from this store and they are always good quality.

My outfit

Hair :::  Gift Truth Hair

Top ::: Madeon Checked Jacket Red from Emery

Bottom :::  Nina Zip Leggings Charcoal Print from  Miss Chelsea for Uber Event

Footwear :::  Kiki Booties Burnt from Baiastice

Jewelry ::: Anchor Necklace Rose from Paper Arrow

Sim ::: What Next Store